Life dishes out some nasty knocks from time to time. Tell me about it! I have had my share. But I am an ARTIST. I have a creative nature and, I am sorry, but that means that I must recognise the downs as well as appreciate the ups. Sometimes, I were that I were "normal", an accountant or something! My perception is that such people live a much more emotionally stable life. I am 22 years old and I might think that I had "got over" it. But no. When one GIVES huge amounts and feel like you get nothing back, life takes a dive! But then reality kicks in. I would much rather put up with the lows and love the highs that come out of it. I could not live any other way. The truth is that I DO NOT get a choice. I AM AN ARTIST so this is the temperament that I need to deal with!
I must believe that I have not "failed" anyone. Least of all my jazz tutor (he still believes in me!). And the hardest pill to swallow (he has dealt with this one) is that self-pity and self-destruction are unattractive. Repair myself. Look forward! Heal.
Rory spent the first few years of his life in an ice cave, carving out his palace of wonder. He's a bit of a love doll, but he who melts the ice shall have his reward.
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I have been recommended to acknowledge and process all that I have been though, where it all started from how it has affected me.