I have not done anything for my birthday since 2007. Why? Because it would mean going through the stress of having to acknowledge all of my friends' RSVPs and no shows. It was too much. This year, I was encouraged to do something for my birthday. So, I decided to take the risk.
I planned a night out starting at Nando's, pit stop for cocktails at Font Bar and finishing up in Copacabana.
I sat in Nando's alone for about an hour. I contemplated jacking it in and going home. I was sitting at empty booked tables. The waiter kept coming back and asking me when everyone would be arriving. I was telling him that I did not know and asked him for more time.
I decided to check up on the room. The guys in the house said that they would let me know about it. I had not heard back from them since October (7 months) after they said that they would let me know.
Fortunately, a friend did turn up eventually. By this point, I had already finished my meal. I might have looked downcast. My friend asked me "are you alright?"
In the end, we skipped Font and went straight to Copacabana. A few more friends turned up. Unfortunately, I was already on a negative spiral. After everything that happened with the council tax fiasco, my ex-flatmate HN hired a hit man to intimidate me into taking his guitar back to the police. There were also those words from Chris "your music is an insult". Now the landlord has discovered a bill for a flood that was caused before I moved in and there is a danger that he might make me pay for it.
The next day, in work, none of my colleagues even acknowledged that I had invited them to my birthday party. Despite me staying silent about it, the venue manager made a joke of what I might have been thinking. He said "all of those bastards who did not attend your birthday party!"
I have decided to leave Manchester. I am no longer happy here.
Rory spent the first few years of his life in an ice cave, carving out his palace of wonder. He's a bit of a love doll, but he who melts the ice shall have his reward.
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