I have been doing mostly good! 😊
Lately, I have been working on my responses to things and the relationship that I have with my thoughts. I am trying to remain mindful / notice patterns vs. not judge them too much. It is a tricky balance! I notice that I automatically self-subjugate without even realising it.
I need to work on:
a) where this originated and b) how I can transform negative thoughts into positives.
I am beginning to recognise those moments when I am worrying about things that I do not need to worry about (like things that I said or did), bringing that into the consciousness and making a conscious choice about whether or not I wish to do anything about it (like apologise). There is a danger of falling back into the cycle of over-apologising and self-subjugating / manifesting again and that is what I am trying to get out of. I am learning how to care a little less but gauge a measure of how "caring less" makes me feel. And using that to make my choice. If that makes sense 🤔
This would apply to friendships / relationships.
It is great that I am taking time to reflect on myself a lot more. It is hand identifying such habits / behaviours and even harder breaking them. I am being a lot more conscious in what I do and say while not overthinking the things that I have done or said.
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I have been recommended to acknowledge and process all that I have been though, where it all started from how it has affected me.