In 2007, I worked as a security guard at Glastonbury. I was on day shift.
One of the duty managers acted rude and aggressive towards me. Whenever I tried to make polite, friendly conversation, she insinuated that I was flirting and said "you are going to have to try better than that!"
On the last day, I was in a queue waiting to hand back my uniform. Someone came past, thrust a load of stuff into my arms and ran off. I accidentally dropped one of the garments. The lady started reprimanding me. I tried to explain to her that I had too much to carry, but she was not listening to me. I was bullied by her and lost control of my emotions.
During these few days, someone also offered to buy my welly boots for £30. I gave him my welly boots. He did not give me the £30. I agree with the "taking someone at their word" philosophy. I must find a way of taking people at their word while ensuring that I am protected. It is about being able to differentiate between "not giving someone my trust" and "not trusting anyone". I can still be friendly to someone without necessarily giving them my trust. By "not trusting anyone" or acting openly untrusting of anyone, I am projecting my inner unhappiness onto the outer world and manifesting the same cycles of fate to happen again in future, simply by setting an expectation and living it through.
Rory spent the first few years of his life in an ice cave, carving out his palace of wonder. He's a bit of a love doll, but he who melts the ice shall have his reward.
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I have been recommended to acknowledge and process all that I have been though, where it all started from how it has affected me.